Tuesday, September 8, 2015

Accidental Year-Long Hiatus

I've been on this crazy hiatus from my blog for about a year now and after my recent stay in the hospital for 3 weeks it seemed like a good time to pick up my blog again.

I had a lot of Garbage going on trying to work on my Masters degree and the house it things just became really super overwhelming. So lot's of people have come and gone and we have a set of people here now, most of which have been here for some time. So to start fresh I'm sharing my roomies and petty pets.


So starting from the basement and moving upward is Me and The Man


Just to keep things tidy here are the fluffy butts Perrin my big orange buddy and Lanfear his small dark counterpart.

Perrin is pretty big but he has a little tiny mow, he's very clever but it take him time to work things out. He is very lovable and always manages to be the most chill cat in the world and the most regally pudgy. He is a tentative lap cat. Lanfear is the most lovable, snuggly,  talkative cat ever. She always sounds like she's complaining or crying. She is not really all that smart, she can't open a closed door even if it doesn't latch. She somehow always manages to look like she is resigned to a life of torture and loneliness. She loves belly rubs and can be aggressively affectionate with headbutts and hand grabbing cuddles.


On the next floor up we have our library as the room above me and The Man's room because we got tired of room mates in there keeping us up at night, or overhearing things we did not necessarily want to hear so now it is a library. And we have the TrollHive mascot Ted. We adopted him from a friend who said that she was moving and couldn't take him. She'd also noticed he became more withdrawn after she had kids and she was really concerned he wasn't happy. She didn't want to let him go but she thought here would be a good place if she had to let him go. Ted has really turned around. he used to hide 24/7. Now, he is silly and acts a lot like a dog including aggressively wagging his tail when he is happy. He sniffs like a dog. He sniffs everything. He only likes to be held if you drape him over your shoulder like a towel. Generally, when someone from the Hive introduces Ted they say "This is Ted, he's special". He's affectionate, and playful, and just all around weird. His person said that's how he used to be.

Here is a doodle of Ted.


Then there is The Beard. He was here near the beginning and he is hardened veteran of the TrollHive. There are many reasons he has lasted here so long.


The Hippie is relatively new here. She moved in as a girlfriend of one of the old roomies, but they broke up. He decided to leave and she decided to stay. I like The Hippie, she likes music much older than her, she is very spiritual, she has dreads and lots of tattoos.






Moving to the top floor.
Our newest member is still slowly moving in. She works at the Game
store nearby the TrollHive. One of the youngest people here, but generally she seems happy. I don't know much about her or her personality. I am very introverted and find her presence overwhelming. I am still not entirely sure what her nickname should be. I might call her Play Pal because she likes to cosplay and she's friendly.


In the next room is Dobby, although he doesn't do dobby duties anymore, he has a job, and pays his rent, and now he has a girlfriend.  Dobby's girlfriend has lived here for some time now. She's nice enough. She is wound pretty tight and she cooks a lot of pungent smelling food. Usually, with lots of cheese. I think I might call her Cheesy Chef.



I will update and include the final two pictures tomorrow. My hospital stay has me low on energy and I am very tired these days.

Now there is also Mr.Sarcasm. He has a steady job and in his spare time he acts. We butt heads a lot but he's an okay kinda guy, just young and stubborn. Everything he says always sounds like sarcasm. Most of the time even when he is being genuine, he sounds sarcastic.


Last is Hufflepuff. He is sort of our charity case like Dobby used to be. He lives in the Dobby closet and he does yard work and odd jobs around the house to pay his way. I believe he is the youngest person in the house. He is genuine and nice most of the time, but spacey and persistent in his exaggerations which can be frustrating sometimes. The house as a whole jokingly calls him hufflepuff or Tarantula because of his spacey kind of nature.

Monday, September 1, 2014

Shall We Date? Ninja Assassin: Wakasa

I really like Wakasa. He has a complicated type of personality but seems to be generally sweet and attentive. There are only 11 chapters to his story and the last one is the ending of your choice. So far I only have the normal ending and then I am going to try for the sweet ending. After that the happy ending should be a cake walk. ^_^ Purple is chapter, Green is option, Blue is result. I only got two types of results so far Intimacy up a lot!, and Intimacy up a little... I'll try and keep this updated as I go along. Right now I have notes of where the pictures are but not necessarily if there are specific answer requirements (It's hard to tell on the first play through).

Chapter 1
Of course! Intimacy up
Not sure...

I force myself not to.
No, I don't. Intimacy up
(Picture!) 
 
Chapter 2
I'd hate to...Intimacy up
Please stop!

Stop! Intimacy up
(What to do?) 

Chapter 3
I enjoy my job! Intimacy up
Well...

Huh?
You're mistaken! Intimacy up
 (Picture!)
Chapter 4
Is that so?
It doesn't seem to be? Intimacy up

I'm his assistant  Up a little
What kind of relationship?

Chapter 5
Is that okay?
Please wait! Intimacy up

You really did!  Up a little
Not really...

Chapter 6 
No. Intimacy up
A little.

I don't know.
Okay...  Intimacy up
(Picture!)

Chapter 7
It's nothing...
Actually... Up a little

I don't understand
I think that's good  Up a litte

Chapter 8
We're not!
Actually... Intimacy up

I'm Fine!
I'm sorry. Up a little

Chapter 9
I think you deceived him Up a little
Your expression is so obvious

I did think it.
N-No I didn't! Up a little

Chapter 10
(Picture!) (Picture!)
But will that work...?
Okay... Intimacy up

Not Yet...
Yes.  Intimacy up
(Picture!)
 
Chapter 11  
The ending of your choice! <3<3<3 You get images for Happy and Sweet endings but not for the normal one (-_-).

Shall We Date? Lost Island+: Ichiro Sakaki

Now I will be honest here, as a 28 year old woman I do get a bit tired of the young pretty boys. I like Ichiro because he is a mature looking older fellow who has a boyish charm. So far, he is probably my favorite character. <3 Purple for chapter, Green for option, Blue for result. I'm having a hard time with his because what he wants is out of my natural character. The changes in the love meter are: Love meter went up a lot, love meter remains the same. There may be more but those are the ones I have seen so far. ^_^

Chapter 1
 Not really...
Well kind of... Remains the same

Please stop.
That tickles! Remains the same

Chapter 2
A date!
We just got separated Love meter went up!

Don't you want to know? Remains the same
Yeah, you're right. 

Chapter 3
I'm going too Love meter went up!
Wait and see what happens

I'm a little tired.
I'm alright. Love meter went up!

Chapter 4
Look at Mr. Sakaki
Squeeze his hand back Remains the same

I'll be fine
I can rest later Remains the same

Chapter 5
Good night
I'll put on some tea Love meter went up!

Are you alright? Love meter went up!
It's nothing 

Chapter 6
Now is not the time for such behavior
I'm glad you're safe too Love meter went up!

What can we do to help Love meter went up!
We should probably do something about those two 

Chapter 7
Not a wink. Love meter went up!
Well, not exactly...

I don't know if it's the right time for that...
Come to think of it, we haven't eaten lately. Love meter went up!

Chapter 8



Shall We Date? Scarlet Fate +: Furutsugu

This game is a bit tricky because some of the answers don't influence the love meter, they just change what happens after the choice. As I continue playing I will continue updating. ^_^ Purple is chapter, Green is option, Blue is result (spoilers). You made great choices! means the love meter has increased

Chapter 1
Atonement
Don't need a reason No meter change (Gentoka calls you a liar though D:)

Find Gentoka
Find Akifusa No meter change (You find Akifusa :P)
 
Chapter 2
Talk to Gentoka No meter change
Talk to Kuso

Go practice with Sword (You find Akifusa)
Go find ancient texts (You find Kuso)
See what Furutsugu is up to You made great choices! (Furutsugu flirts with you).
 
Chapter 3
Go to Toshi Temple
Go toward riverbed No meter change (You find Furutsugu playing the flute)

Help Gentoka
Help Furutsugu You made great choices! (you also get a CG of a fighting Furutsugu)
Help Akifusa 
 
Chapter 4
It's my...fate No meter change (The other character is clearly frustrated with you).
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Go look for Gentoka
Go look for Furutsugu You made great choices! (You look for a long time)
Go look for Akifusa
 
Chapter 5

Shall We Date? Angel Or Devil: Raug

I am currently playing this character and decided to keep track of my answers to help other people out. As I play the game through each time I will detail the walkthrough better with each pass :) I hope it helps. So far it seems like Raug likes a decisive take-charge kind of woman which works for me because that is exactly what I am. ^_^ Purple marks new chapter, Green is option, Blue is result.

Chapter 1
I can't think of any.  Close!
There isn't enough time!

Put me Down
Take me Home Brilliant!
 
Chapter 2
Shout "Stop!" Brilliant!
Run Away

Why should I?
You should apologize Brilliant!
 
Chapter 3
Tell Raug what happened Brilliant!
Keep quiet

I won't go to the underworld
Don't Bother me Brilliant!

Chapter 4 
Is he interested in my brother?
Is he hitting on me? Brilliant!

It was a lot of fun
I wonder if we could meet again? Close!

Chapter 5
Turn away Brilliant!
Give in

Follow him out
Refuse the invite Brilliant!

Chapter 6
Yell "Stop!"
Protect the bat Brilliant!

Go with the reaper
Stay there Brilliant!

Chapter 7
Tend to his wound Brilliant!
Worry about what to do

I don't know
What's Raug's intentions? Brilliant!

Chapter 8 
Talk about the food
Talk about the picture Close!

I want to be with Raug Brilliant!
I can't decide 

Chapter 9
Leave the room
Go down the stairs Brilliant!

Take his hand
Hug him Brilliant!

Chapter 10
No, take me with you.. Brilliant!
Okay...

I believe with some of the free games even if you get all Brilliant! answers you may still need an item to increase the love meter for the sweet ending. I'll keep updating and we shall see. ^_^

Updates...

So. There is a lot going on. Mr. Bubbles moved out, the ladies moved out, now we have The Nord and Pixie and their little prince. We have Dobby and his lady whom I have not named. Hot Pocket, Iron Man and The Beard, and a new couple also not yet names. The Man and I have ourselves and our cats Perrin and Lanfear, we also took in a cat who belongs to a good friend of ours. This cat's name is Ted, he's a pretty goofy cat. I got a two week vacation between classes which is now coming to an end. I used this vacation to beat the first Borderlands, and Zelda: A link between worlds, and I am about halfway through Borderlands 2. You probably aren't aware but for months I have been increasing the games I play daily and right now that list is up to 10 games. The first one is Deadmans Cross. I really like it, it is a cross between a card battling game and a zombie game. Post apocalyptic you play as a man who is coming out of his house after three months of being locked inside because of government warnings. When you come out the first person to help and teach you (The Tutorial) is an a-hole of a kid named Oliver. There are a lot of internet references in the game so it has it's comical parts. It's definitely worth trying.if you find that interesting my invite code is XVENUTC so come kill zombies with me.

The other 9 games I play are by a company called NTT Solmare. They have a series of Otome games called "Shall We Date?" that I find particularly enjoyable. I play these games

My Sweet Prince
Destiny Ninja
Ninja Love+
Magic Sword
Angel or Devil
Scarlet Fate+
Lost Island+
Ninja Assassin
Mononoke Kiss

As a note, I only play the free versions and I rarely buy anything with real money. The game mechanics are essentially the same for each game. There are activities you can do using a set of points that raise your charm or appeal level. They renew one point every 3 to 15 minutes depending on the game. Then you have energy points (Between 4 and 5 depending on the game), with these you can read portions of the story for the male character you have chosen. You gain 1 energy every 4 HOURS! Annoying but I find the stories are worth it. You generally have three types of checkpoints, an item checkpoint, an enemy checkpoint, and a charm or appeal level checkpoint. In most of the games you also have an avatar which you can dress and each item of clothing will increase charm level. There are a lot of other details that one should know but it is best to play the tutorial and find out. There are some instances where the English is not quite right, and some repetitive language but the stories are really good! In four of the games they released new characters. <3 I decided to write walkthroughs as I played them so I am going to do four more posts today, one for each character. I will also try to update those as frequently as possible. :)

Thursday, August 14, 2014

Remembering


When I read that Robin Williams died it actually had a huge impact on me. I've never met him, I don't know him personally, but I loved him. I grew up watching so many of his movies and I haven't seen many I didn't like. He reminds me a lot of my father and I looked up to him.

I keep tearing up knowing that he is gone. So many people probably think it's an over reaction. He was just a famous person I didn't know personally. He made me laugh. He brightened my days. He made my life easier to live. He inspired me to try and be a better person. I aspire to have an impact like Robin Williams had on the world.

On that same side he was a person like the rest of us and he struggled with his own demons. Maybe madness comes with true brilliance like his. I wish I could have met him, could have known him personally, I always kind of hoped I would. I'll never have the chance to know him now because he's gone. I respect him and his memory and I am greatly saddened by the loss.

I keep reading that he was battling depression, and the unfortunate circumstance of his death, and  I think to myself what a wonderful human being. Despite how he felt on the inside he made others laugh and brought them great emotions through his films. I'm having a difficult time expressing how I feel about his death. For me I feel as though a beloved family member has passed away, I can't imagine it hurting any more if it was my goofy uncle or loving father, unless maybe it was both.

Tears now stream down my face as I can grieve in private and not feel judged by my house mates for "Crying over a movie star". I never saw him as just a movie star or comedian. Despite never having met him I loved him, and it hurts me greatly he is gone. I am sad he could no longer bear the burden of his emotions, of his inner demons. It will help drive me through my Master's degree program with renewed vigor. Did you know I am studying psychology? I want to help people. I want to ease the burdens people bear alone. I want to soothe their demons. I want to strengthen their resolve, excite their good emotions, and calm their bad ones... I want to help people.

Maybe I will help people in the future like Robin Williams helped me. I hope that I can help abuse victims specifically. On a serious note about Yours Truly, I have been abused in my past, neglected, depressed, with nothing to lose. When my life was darkest I always had laughter, and Robin Williams was one of the lights that helped me become who I am today.I keep this humorous blog because I aspire to make people laugh. I don't think I will ever make up for the loss of such a great person, but I hope to one day be just as great. I hope I will have as big an impact as he did. I hope that when I die there will be people I've never met crying over me.

Thursday, May 29, 2014

Oo Shinies..

Recap at the TrollHive, people have moved out, people have moved in. So, we have myself, The Man, IronMan, Dobby and his girlfriend who I have yet to find a creative name for. We also have another fellow who has moved in for whom I have no name.  The Nord and Pixie now have a little prince of their own who was born Friday May 23.  The beard is still here and so is Mr. Bubbles.

Did I mention at any point that I am working on a Master's degree? I don't remember. I remember it has been a while since I posted and since I was thinking of it I thought I would do that while I have a week off from school.

Also, I managed to get a lot of work done out in the yard this past week so I am feeling rather accomplished.  Anyone who knows me personally knows the random mix of music I have. I use the free version of pandora and I have 100 stations which is the maximum you are allowed to have on the free version. Most of which are different. I'll share some of my music on facebook. You should find me there and see what I like. ERMERGHERD FACEBOOK. 
Check there might catch me on. :)

Damn spiders are coming in doors. Was cuddling the man and I had one skitter across my face.

MY.

FACE.

*shudder*

Normally I'm chill with spiders I'll still squish them because you never know if it could be poisonous but I don't usually shriek over them. I shriek over flying bugs with stingers. I have long bright red hair. Flying things like my hair. They get stuck in it. If something buzzes by my head I run away shrieking like there is a fire breathing pterodactyl chasing me.

Thursday, February 27, 2014

Weirdo

Sometimes when I am up and  hours I get to thinking about ridiculous things. Sorry I haven't written anything in a while btw, Masters degrees aren't easy.

Anyway if you follow me with any regularity you know I like video games and such. I also get crushes on make believe characters too, in case you didn't know. Like, for example, I'll see an anime character and think "wow, what a babe". Believe it or not it isn't really that unusual these days but I always think to myself I'm being a little silly to find lines and ink in unrealistic proportions to be sexy.

I am also using rosetta stone to learn Japanese, I think I have an advantage to that because all the anime I watch with subtitles, and the manga I read. In case you don't know manga are Japanese comics. I like personality really so I think that's the gist when it comes to finding fictional characters attractive. It's at least somewhat excusable when they are live action movies because the actors and actresses are real people.

I can feel less awkward about the fact that I have had the hots for David Duchovny and Gillian Anderson since I was six or seven years old. The list of the famous people I had a crush on in my youth is pretty funny I liked Michael Jackson for a while, and David Bowie, that fella that played the green/white ranger in the Power Rangers, Keanu Reeves, Will Smith, Jada Pinkett, Sigourney Weaver. There were others I'm sure.

Oh yea, back to the game thing. I got a PS3 from The Man for Xmas, and a few games. I beat Epic Mickey, and started playing a game called Ar Tonelico Quoga: Knell of Ciel. It is amazingly fan servicey and brilliantly colorful. It's this odd combination of action adventure RPG and dating sim. The story is intriguing and the fan service is built in to the game as it pertains largely to battle. I have not beaten it yet, but I will soon. I also beat my Ds game Atelier Annie 2 more times, I love that game.

I have recently watched many animes and read any related manga, Fruits basket, Angel Beats, Full Metal Alchemist, Ouran High School Host Club, Kamisama Kiss, Inu x Boku SS, Haganai, Nyan Koi, and Maria Holic. 56 episodes in on Bleach and reading the manga behind. Also, started cross stitching the Ouroboros from FMA with the state alchemist symbol in the middle.

On top of that researching and finding things for the haunt and helping The Man create plaster molds for haunt prosthetics. Today, I sculpted a small facial deformity while watching Bleach. I really have too many hobbies don't I? It is my week vacation between class sets so I have been trying to squeeze in as much fun as I can.
Let me share some pictures with you!

Above is my deformity sculpture the picture isn't so great and this was before I finished sculpting it. :D
Two pictures from Ar tonelico, something funny and something fan servicey.
I drew this on our white board when I was watching FMA, I'm not used to drawing vertically or On that medium but I think it came out, okay.
A picture I drew as an idea.
The Image I am trying to replicate in cross stitch.

Friday, November 22, 2013

X-files and Nerd things

So I have decided I am going to call the new fellow in the trollhive Mr. Bubbles. He has an old picture of him wearing a t-shirt with Mr. Bubbles on it, and he is a friendly enough guy.

No pictures of him yet but that's what I'm calling him here now. :)

Been on an X-Files binge for the last week or so up to season 6 now. I love this show. Have I ever explained that before?

When I was about 7 the show came out and I watched it in my room late at night when I was supposed to be in bed, it came on right after tales from the crypt. There was an episode in the first season with glow in the dark bugs and it scared the bejesus out of me. I think my love of horror started around that time. I've never seen all of it so I have been watching it all now.

Also, the last post I made discussed Halloween. Did I mention I've been doing a Halloween trail with friends the past two years with plans to continue it for a long time? Well we are, so I went in my broken doll costume, which I do not have very good pictures of, and then changed to my trail costume while I was there. I also helped with the makeup for some of the main characters in the trail.

My friend did get some awesome photo's of the makeup we did so I will share those with you.

So for your viewing pleasure:
This is me, we did some facial bruising makeup to look like I'd been smacked around during my stay. We did contouring on the other side of my face to make the bruising look swollen. We also added blood over my eye and leaking from my eye and ear. I ended up playing more like I was leashed to the tree and lurched at the groups screaming, either help or run. ^_^
This is me shading Dobby's brain cap. Later we added blood and bandages across the chest as well as paling out his face and making his eyes look bruised and tired.
This is a great picture of the work we did on that brain cap, looks pretty convincing doesn't it? The Man was a scientist in the trail and Dobby the subject he was working on. They were set back off the trail a bit and I was in front like I was supposed to be the next victim.
Last one, this is The Man in his mad scientist costume, we were playing it up for the camera. With him we aged his face mostly with shading in the smile lines and the forehead wrinkles. Then we splattered some blood on him. This is where I was leashed, back behind The Man is a small clearing where he and Dobby were staged.

It was a fun experience. I look forward to continuing to do this every year around Halloween.

Tuesday, October 22, 2013

Halloween practice time

I've been practicing Halloween makeup because I have never tried this technique before. I want to be a broken porcelain doll. The first practice all I did was practice painting and shading. 

  


I started with a clean dry face. :)

For my second practice I used something called Fauxtex, because I have a mild latex allergy to help create some cracks with depth.
First I made the Fauxtex using corn starch, cold water, solid vegetable oil, and unflavored gelatin, and a squirt of white grease paint so it would be the color I was painting my face.
















Then I took some one ply TP and stuck it to my face where I wanted my cracks. I used some warm Fauxtex to stick it down. I added 3 or 4 more layers and tried to let them set. It took a while for it to fully set up, several hours before I was satisfied with it. I also put a thin layer over my eyebrows, it's easy to get out just tedious.
After I had finished with all the Fauxtex I painted my whole face with white grease paint (Not on my eyelids though, those needed to stay clean for the application of false eyelashes) even painting the corners of my mouth leaving some unpainted for later and let that dry. I also applied some white powder over it so I wouldn't smear the paint and to help it set.  


Once the base was done, I applied the pink blush to my cheeks and drew some light lines with eyeliner along the areas I wanted cracks. I also painted in my eyebrows at this point and did the lower lid eyeliner. I took a small pair of scissors and clipped along the drawn lines where I wanted the deep cracks. I filled in the cut areas with black paint, and then shaded along the outside of the cracks using dark brown and gray eye shadows. Then I applied the fake lashes and blue eye shadow, I also put mascara on my natural lashes so they would blend in with the fake ones better.
I wandered around the hive and got some opinions on the makeup, after which I decided to add another deep crack and got opinions again. After the last round of opinions I tried to fade out some of the smaller cracks to make it look more like cracked porcelain and less like a black growth of vines on my face. I think the final product is pretty good.
Next weekend it will be the real deal and I might share some pictures of the whole costume. :)

Thursday, September 26, 2013

Some Random Information For You.

I like horror movies and television shows. I laugh if someone startles me and I have been making efforts to startle people in the house or just generally be creepy. The Nord gets up really early for work. Yesterday morning I went down to go to the bathroom and it was chilly so I had a dark green sheet wrapped around me. I heard The Nord shuffling around in his room and froze in the hallway. I was considering crouching down and scuttling into the dining room to hide behind the table when he opened the door. My thoughts were interrupted by the sound of his door handle so I just put my arms over my head and brought my hands together to make myself look taller. I heard the door open so I just stayed still. He didn't say anything so I slowly started shuffling down the hall and I didn't hear him move. When I reached the end of the hallway I went ahead and turned around to look at him and we both had a good laugh. He thought it was The Man being weird or something because I had made myself look taller.

Earlier in the morning I had startled The Beard. It was probably 3 a.m. and I heard someone poking around downstairs so I crept down to see who was wandering about. He was standing at the sink getting a drink of water. I stood just inside the kitchen (which also happens to be right next to his cabinets). I didn't say a word just watched. When he turned his eyes were still half closed from sleep and as he got closer they popped open because there was suddenly a person nearby.

Later on I startled Pixie. She was standing in the kitchen making her morning coffee. I wandered in, I guess I was just really quiet. I leaned to the side and looked up as she was pouring the water into the machine and I said "Can you make a little extra for me?" Her reaction was pretty funny because she was still half asleep so she stood up straight, looked right at me, and then facepalmed. I heard her breath come out in one big whoosh and then she laughed and told me not to sneak up on her.

At any given time during the day or night I might pop around a corner or just lurk silently in the room without the lights on. I am infinitely amused by it. I am not so sure everyone else is. They seem to take it in good humor but sometimes I wonder if I am getting on their nerves. 0.o
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Nah, there is no way as weird as we all are here I highly doubt it....:P

Monday, September 23, 2013

Eating Paste...

Well before I get into the meat of this entry I wanted to give you a simple doodle of Pixie. She is very petite and she dates The Nord who is probably a good foot and a half taller than her, but they seem happy and that's all that matters. ^_^ Mostly, she is friendly but kind of spacey. Not in a bad way, in the endearing Luna Lovegood kind of way. Although, she can and will get angry if you push her enough: Generally, she's pretty mellow.
Now Let's get on with this entry shall we?

When I was very young (probably still in kindergarten) I tended to have a simplistic view of life, just the same as most children that age group.

I liked finger paints, and artistic things. One of my teachers said on an interim report that I was imaginative and got along well with others but when it came to sharing I had a hard time keeping my stories limited to real life things. In other words I told a lot of tall tales.


So I was an imaginative kid to say the least. At some point we were working on a project in class that required paste. I'm not even sure if schools use paste anymore.

It was Elmer's Glue Paste.
It was a white bottle-looks like a plastic jar. The cap was that bright orange characteristic of Elmer's. The cap had a little knob for holding and when you opened it there was a flat stick attached to the inside lid for scooping the paste out of the jar and smooshing it on things. The paste itself looked thick and gritty.

It smelled funny like Elmer's glue usually smells. I was busily smearing the paste all over a piece of paper-I don't even remember what I was trying to make-I just remember spattering it all over the page with great joy.
I stopped because a sound had caught my attention. It sounded like someone eating, so I turned to look behind me. I'm not sure what I expected to see, maybe I was hoping someone had candy or ice cream. Instead there was a little boy.

He was shoveling paste into his mouth like it was the most amazing thing he had ever eaten in his life. That image has stuck with me this long, I don't think I will be forgetting it any time soon.

I thought maybe it was one of those things that smells weird but tastes pretty good like vegetables or Chinese food. He looked like he was enjoying it after all...
As a matter of fact, he made that paste look like it was the best thing a person would ever taste. I figured if he enjoyed it so much it couldn't taste that bad.

~Now perhaps part of my problem these days is the fact I have not lost that open-minded simplicity most children have. If someone else likes it, well I might as well give it a try. Unless it is some kind of bodily waste I do have to draw a line somewhere~

Anyway, I figured if he liked it so much it was certainly worth a try. I was pretty excited by this point. This is potentially something delicious and I had a whole jar of it available for my pleasure. At this point, it seemed kind of like a child's version of the Holy Grail:
I have this saved as "ElmersHolyPaste" in case you were wondering.




  I dipped the little stick into the jar and dug out a big healthy heap of paste. Obviously it still smelled weird so I decided to be more cautious with this new delicacy. Instead of stuffing the paste into my mouth like the boy behind me I stuck out my tongue and licked a little off the dipstick..
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I promptly spat the paste out and stared at the boy confusedly. It is-to date- the most horrendous tasting thing I have ever had the displeasure of attempting to eat. I imagine if Desperation and Hate got together and made a gritty, chunky, pudding it would taste like Elmer's Glue Paste.


So here is my warning to you: Never eat paste, it's disgusting.

Thursday, August 29, 2013

Things to say!

I think I mentioned pixie a few times, I explained that Obnoxious and TrollDiva were leaving. We have a new member of the Trollhive now, but I am not sure what I should call him for the purpose of my blog. I think for now I will let you know there is a new male member of the Trollhive.

Other random assorted news includes the fact I will be starting online school again on September 3rd (Go Me!). Which is very cool indeed, I'm going back for an MS in Psychology, wOOt wOOt.

Other things I have been considering is putting my hair in Dread Locks. I think I will do something temporary to see how I like the general look before I put all that work in to doing it.

My doodle of myself does not accurately depict some things about me, like the fact my hair is really long and I prefer to dress mostly in black. I won't call myself Goth, as a matter of fact I hate what that label implies, but when I get dressed up because I feel like it, and put makeup on; I always tend to go on the more extreme side. Like this:

It helps propagate the label that I am very fair skinned naturally. I also tend to throw things together or make clothes because I like them. My arm warmers I made from some child size stockings I bought at Wal-Mart after Halloween. I've seen some decent fishnet shirts made out of fishnet pantie hose. I also have a bin full of old zippers in a variety of colors. When I find that perfect pair of jeans I intend on covering them in rainbow colored zippers.

I think the reason I hate people calling me Goth is because I don't have the personality that most people think of when they spit the word out like a vile curse. I just think black suits my figure better and since my humor errs on the morbid side in every day situations I like skulls, coffins, and other morbid paraphernalia. My style actually tends to be a mash up of "Goth", "Grunge" and "Hippie" Honestly, I don't like labels on people much, they tend to do more harm than good. Sometimes you never know what could be under the surface, I might look all dark and creepy but I am really very friendly and outgoing most of the time. If I'm not feeling friendly and outgoing I'll stay home.

So there is what is going on here in a nutshell. Plus, a little insight about this blog keeper. Oh by the way, The Man really likes this picture, he says it is cute and captures a lot of who I am. Which is to say pretty darn goofy despite the black clothes and the startling make up.

Tuesday, July 30, 2013

Working things out.

So I have three or four blog entries laid out on paper and I need to fabricate the images for them. I also need to create an entry about pixie so everyone can get to know her. The Obnoxious One and TrollDiva have decided to move out; it seems they have found something that is more within their comfortable budget range. Also Dude will be moving back with his parents because his father just had a major surgery and Dude is needed.


So this means the TrollHive will be populated with Yours Truly, The Man, IronMan, Dobby, The Nord, Pixie, and The Beard.


On a more interesting note I discovered something interesting today that I did not know. I am particularly fond of a duo titled "The Dresden Dolls" The song linked here is NSFW, and you probably won't want any children in the room either. The point is I like the odd styling and the content is warped enough it suites my humor. I discovered that this Amanda Palmer, is married to Neil Gaiman. If you watched Coraline then you know of Neil Gaiman. The two seem perfectly suited for each other and I was not in the least surprised. It did interest me though.

To switch to the topic of this blog, I have been contemplating a video entry because it is hard to get a gauge of my humor through writing since much of it also involves my body. I am a very...animated speaker and it is something that gets lost when writing blog entries. I don't intend to switch to vlogging or any other such thing, I enjoy the writing and I enjoy my art work. I simply thought it would be a good gesture to let people have an image to go along with the printed word.

I have also been deep in thought the past few days about what type of content should be in this video entry and how I should go about creating it. So in a nutshell I have been rather preoccupied lately, and for that I truly apologize. If it is any consolation at all, at least now it is known what I intend to do in the future....and hopefully it is in the NEAR future rather than some unknown variable of time in the equation.

Friday, June 21, 2013

Twat Waffles and Twiddle Parties

Apparently people find me to be very amusing when I am tired. Perhaps this is because I don't have a filter for all the random inside my brain.

Talking to Pixie and TrollDiva about lots of assorted things, like the running joke that the ladies throw twiddle parties while the men are away. We once went into great detail about running naked through the house. Wearing party hats and making a lot of noise with our penis-shaped vuvuzela's.

Today, Pixie asked to borrow my lighter so I scrunched up my face and said "No". Then I gestured at my lap and handed it to her while saying "twat lighter". I looked at TrollDiva and smiled saying Pixie was touching my twat and it only seemed fair since Pixie makes me touch her "D" all the time. Which "D" is what she calls her lighter on a tether in case you were wondering. Then I called Pixie a twatwaffle which brought about the conversation of Blue Waffles. Pixie was not aware of the meaning of either so TrollDiva educated Pixie on the matter of Blue Waffles. After which I made commentary to the affect that I was trying to figure out what could cause a Blue Waffle. This in turn spurred TrollDiva to look it up. In case you were wondering about that; there is no known disease that causes it, and it was originally a prank played on a mayor.

TrollDiva is wearing a shirt with cherries on it so I said she was all cherries today. Then I promptly asked if you could pop those cherries. She looked at me in a comically suggestive way and said "you know it". To which I replied " have you guys ever heard that song ' pop that coochay'?" They laughed at me because that was how I said it, and then immediately followed that by saying "I heard it scroll by in my head". Which only served to make them laugh more.

I'm a weirdo.

Apathetic Rage Depression

Sorry, I really haven't been writing very much. I don't think I posted anything at all last month and then I felt guilty, because of the guilt: I posted one I was holding back so I could at least have something this month. That said; I've been in a funk.

A weird apathetic/rage/depression. I am not sure what you would call it. It started off with just being irritated at everything all the time. Those things that infuriate your obsessive compulsive tendencies but you can't yell at people about it because not everyone is anal retentive about these things.

Not just those but also other things that normally would just be a nuisance enraged me to the point I felt like droppin' plates [Insert Disturbed song here] just to hear something break so I could feel better.


I'm aware these things either can't be helped (like the cat), or they are some weird quirk of my own so I feel bad even bringing it up.

I'm guessing my lack of expression, or lack of ability to express the irritation led to the apathy. I am currently still in the (more or less) apathetic depression.

At first I just stayed in my room, balled up on my bed, buried under the covers with no motivation to get up and do anything. The cat draped across my head did not bother me, and when she started to purr, it did not soothe me. I just felt very motivated to do nothing but lay there.

I thought maybe if I forced myself up and to socialize I might feel better. They say that if you keep smiling and trying to be happy, eventually you will be. That, my friends, is a LIE. For the past several weeks I have been forcing myself out of bed and socializing with the housemates. I genuinely smile, laugh, and talk, but I still don't feel happy. I don't feel anything. HAHAHAHA-oh kind of thing happening.


Then when I did start feeling things again (which I do now but only just) it is brief moments of extreme sadness or bright flashes of anger. Mostly, I spend my time thinking. The moments of sadness generally come with the thinking. The flashes of anger when I am out in the common areas.

I constantly have an inner monologue going on because of the heightened awareness of EVERYTHING, that came with this strange state of existence.

So that's kind of my daily battle. Now don't get me wrong here, The house is not a filthy mess. I just notice every little thing that has any possibility of annoying me. Especially since I have a weird super power for it now. Oh. LISTEN PUNY NON-GINGERS! THE NEIGHBOR TO OUR LEFT PUT THE TOILET PAPER ON THE ROLL WRONG!


Snap awake from a restless sleep. THE CAT WILL PUT HER BUTT ON MY HEAD IN EXACTLY...3...2...1. catbutt. I'm not even sure whether to be grateful for the apathy most of the time or not. At least if I just feel "meh" I'm not, NOT happy, but I'm not angry or depressed either.

Time marches on.

Monday, June 10, 2013

Fights: Finish Him!

Where to start? First, let me say I am a redhead, sometimes called ginger, often called grumpy. It's frustrating that any grumpiness or anger I might show is attributed to the color of my hair; rather than the fact I might have a legitimate reason for being upset. People make jokes about my not having a soul so I stare at them intently and tell them to continue speaking and soon they will not have one either.
Any way the point is that when I was a child I was shy and quiet but I did indeed have an awe-inspiring temper. It was not easily set off but some things triggered it instantaneously. I have only been in a handful of fights my whole life and most of them were with boys. This is the first fight I was ever involved in.

When I was probably about 7 years old I was wandering around the neighborhood by myself, minding my own business, poking at sticks, and random debris trying to find something to do. I heard someone start shouting things at me. When I looked it was a boy about my own age.

I pretty much ignored him and continued poking through the debri looking for something interesting. Keep in mind I had never met this boy before. He started making fun of me, my clothing, my hair, and what I was doing. So I stopped poking around and went to say something to him. I approached calmly and told him he needed to stop being mean to me because I didn't do anything to him.

For some unknown reason when I was telling him to stop he started to hit me with a stick that I had previously not noticed. Being the type of person I was at the time I blocked his strikes with my arms and was probably just going to leave and go home. I was never the confrontational type, actually I was kind of a wimp. But the boy starts insulting my mother and my sisters. How he knew I even had sisters is beyond me. Unfortunately for him, this has always been something that sent me over the edge into full on rage. From any perspective it's kind of like my version of hulking out. I'm sitting there one second talking to you and trying to get you to stop whatever it is and the next there is a very angry redhead in your face (which I have been informed is very terrifying indeed).
Growing several feet and my hair going all DBZ is probably an exaggeration.


I then snatched that stick out of his hands and proceeded to beat him with it until he was curled up in a ball pleading with me to stop.
In that moment I realized what I was doing and was faced with a moral dilemma. In a matter of seconds I realized I was not behaving any better than he, I had caused another human pain (that wasn't related to me), he was now lying on the ground crying, and finally it dawned that I might get in trouble. At the last realization I dropped the stick and hauled ass home as quickly as my little legs would carry me.

When I made it home I pretended nothing had happened and hoped that nothing would come of my suprising momentary rage. A few minutes passed and I was beginning to relax when there was a knock at the door.

I cautiously peered around the corner and stared at the front door. My parents opened the door and there stood an old man and the smug face of that terrible little boy. 
As you can imagine my parents were pretty angry and they told the old man they would discipline me accordingly. When the two left my parents turned to talk to me about it. They were legitimately confused because it was not in my nature to just beat someone with a stick for no reason. So I told them what had happened. I didn't get in any trouble at all. They told me I had better never start a fight, but I should always be the one to finish it.

This is how I learned it's okay to beat people up as long as they aren't related to me and they start the fight.
(Rule not applicable to siblings especially).


Wednesday, April 10, 2013

Blap..

I have recently been binging on South Park. Got bored and drew faces of some of the characters on balloons which I then taped to the wall over my desk. Around my skylanders poster.


So here they are. :) Kyle, Kenny, Butters, Cartman, Stan, and Tweak. The Man thought it was funny. I am very grateful he tolerates my weirdness.

In other Troll Hive news; Sadly, Dumbell and Coffee Monster have decided to move out at the end of the month. :(
I also have pictures of Dude and IronMan I created for your viewing pleasure. :D
The Nord has moved in for house maintenance. I have a little doodle of him, some art eye candy for you. 
 I also have a picture of Dobby for you, he has moved in as resident housekeeper. Not the rooms, just the common areas.

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Seriously though. I have a doodle for you. This is my doodle of Dobby just for you.
I think that is everyone here and everyone going. I took a little time with my doodles because I thought I would try and do something a bit different with them. 

For Easter The Man and I created some tiny Easter baskets for everyone, and we filled 73 eggs with assorted things such as foam animal stickers, mustache stickers, jelly beans, poppers, balloons, Easter grass, and Confetti. Then we hid all the eggs around the house. We slept on the couch so we could be there when everyone got up and started looking for them. It was fun watching everyone being confused when they spotted an Easter egg somewhere, then they spent half the morning looking for more. :D